I really don't know what to do anymore. I went through David's old notes from Germaine from last year, and he had told me not go to through that drawr but I wanted to know what he was keeping from me. Well I read every single one, from when he cheated on me last year, and I found out the stuff they did because she'd write him one every day in school. I wrote him a note saying I had read them and I knew it was wrong but him lying to me about only kissing like 3 times and shit was wrong. He told me it was her just being dramatic in each one and that most of it isn't exactly true. I don't know what to do anymore. We're always fighting now. I wanted to leave yesterday and just go to my mom's for a while, so I came back after a walk and he was laying on the bed. I put some stuff in my purse and changed my clothes and I was about to leave but he like grabbed my waist and pulled me to the bed and wouldn't let go. I started crying and said let me go, but he said he couldn't and never would. We talked and talked for a while, I don't really want to get into it. I know that half the population that knows me doesn't want me to be with him but I love him and I KNOW he loves me, it's just those notes.. I mean the most I can say is that it was a literally a year ago because they stopped the first week in June, and that it's in the past, and this is a different relationship (sort of) and I need to look forward to the future. I know how he feels about me, there's no doubt about that, I can tell by the way he talks to me and looks at me and such, I just need to keep away from the past and our first relationship. So we talked it over and eventually went to see Night at the Museum Battle of the Smithsonian or whatever, it was pretty good. We each had a headphone in and listened to my iPod while waiting for it to start and played songs for each other about how we were feeling, it was cute. I guess I'll be okay. His Project Graduation is next Friday night after graudation (assuming he graduates with his class, he's failing a lot of classes and school is done on Tuesday) Project Grad is when I broke up with him last year, but I'm not doing that to him again especially at HIS. If we decide to break up I'll wait until like Sunday, since it runs from like 9 Friday until 6 AM Saturday, or do it before and just not go to it with him. But I've got something to give him anyway. It's a happy graduation/we've been together half a year thing. Aiden is doing good. I'm tired of switching his formula. I'm tired of him having so many belly aches and cryng so much because he's got colic. UGH. Like right now, he's been freaking out for like a half hour straight because I won't hold him 24/7. Hm. | 
